I went through my room, putting everything in boxes. I’m getting ready to move out for the first time. Before today, I was doing pretty well living in the present. But today, I opened old doors and cleaned away cobwebs. The brain has a defense mechanism of taking events or memories that cause turmoil and […]Read more "Artifacts"
It’s late and I’m overtired. And it’s probably making me emotional, or, more likely, bringing forward the thoughts that the busyness of my life and mind disguise and filter. Either way, this is the situation I’m in, and this is what I’m feeling. One morning five years ago, I heard a group lead worship in […]Read more "CTI and My Pride (A stream of consciousness fighting humility)"
There’s this guy at my school. He’s very, very openly gay. And we keep running into each other. In the cafeteria, in the halls, we pass each other and exchange hellos. I wasn’t hesitant to say hello or anything like that. I decided right away that I would be friendly because he’s a person, too, […]Read more "I love him… And at heart, I didn’t want to."
This is difficult for me to write. Almost nightly, I binge. Hours are wasted as I try to forget and cope the way I find easiest. Indulging in my addiction.Read more "My Alcoholism"
“My plan is of success and comfort. But God takes my plan and edits it, with trials, and sorrows, and difficulties, and weakness. And He hands it back to me, one trial at a time, and through those difficulties, He strips me of my self-reliance, and He shows me that He is God, and that […]Read more "Edits"