I’m Coming Back!

It has been quite a while since I’ve posted anything to my blog! I’ve been approaching graduation, and so these last few months have been extremely hectic. And sometimes it isn’t even that I don’t have time – it’s that when I do, I’m so exhausted that about the only thing I can do is lay on my bed! However, there have been so many things I’ve been longing to write about, and in a couple weeks, I plan to pick up blogging again.
To start, I have plans to have a post on Mothers’ Day, called “Why I Still Babysit”. After that, Lord willing, I plan to write about Christian radio, the pure gospel, some more posts on trials, and perhaps even some open letter type posts.
I am so excited to get back to writing. I’ve really missed it. I hope it encourages you as much as it encourages me!
May God bless you all this week! He is always good.

I love him… And at heart, I didn’t want to.

There’s this guy at my school. He’s very, very openly gay.

And we keep running into each other.

In the cafeteria, in the halls, we pass each other and exchange hellos. I wasn’t hesitant to say hello or anything like that. I decided right away that I would be friendly because he’s a person, too, and from experience, no matter who the person, they deserve and need to be loved.

So I did. Asked about his day, laughed with him at life and I really enjoyed his witty remarks… Continue reading

From post "Some Songwriting Thoughts". A guitar and an open notebook.

Some Songwriting Thoughts

Here’s a half-baked theory about songwriting from a songwriter.

It’s kind of a pity, but it seems that the best songs come out of the most depressing times. And when you’re joyful and in love with God or life or a person, the songs feel cheesy. So I was figuring out why that is and came to this.

I think this is because storms are personal. We have our individual weaknesses and pains, and so our ways of communicating them are unique, too. And that’s why when you hear that song of struggle that you can relate to on another level, it’s like finding gold.

Meanwhile, love is proven to be a universal, not-so-unique feeling. (Seriously, there have been studies done on the feeling of love.) And that’s not a bad thing. It’s actually good, because if our feelings of love were as unique as our pain, how could we rejoice in it together as a human race, in romances or friendships? Or as a body of believers? Love is about togetherness.

So why are storms individual? It’d seem that pain should be the most relatable for our own sakes. But I think it’s for the simple reason they’e meant to draw us to God. People can help and relate to a point, but God understands and knows fully. Storms and valleys, then, make us rely solely on God, preventing us from being pridefully self-sufficient. Love binds us together and to God in beautiful joy. The oneness we’re created to have.

Let me know what you think about this and correct me and help me get to a fully-baked answer. I know this probably isn’t a perfect concept and I may be wrong, but that’s just my ponderings tonight. :)

"Native" album cover, no text

I Don’t Think the World is Sold on Just Doing What We’re Told

I feel something so right
doing the wrong thing.

I feel something so wrong
doing the right thing…

Everything that kills me makes me feel alive.

OneRepublic recently released the song “Counting Stars” on their album “Native” – and it became a hit. This energetic song with a gospel rhythm describes the limbo within as a young adult, a strange place when you’re old enough to know better but young enough to still carry a lively, risky – maybe what some would describe as “bad” – mindset. Young enough to want to have fun and be able to get away with it, but old enough that an adult lifestyle is expected and maybe should be embraced. The song expresses the lost feelings with the lyrics “old, but I’m not that old; young, but I’m not that bold…”

Quite an accurate description. Continue reading